36 weeks

HOLY COW ONLY 4 (+/-) WEEKS UNTIL BABY TIME!!!  I'm getting nervous and anxious, just another something in my life I'm not control of.  I think mostly I'm nervous about when I'll actually go into labor and anxious about the whole birthing process.  I'm beyond excited to meet this baby, it will be so weird to be holding a baby in my arms and not just in my belly.

I had my 36 week appointment, all is well.  I've gained a total of 28 pounds, measuring 36 weeks, baby's heart rate is still in the 140s and is head down, very down said the midwife.  No exciting news of be dilated yet.  I did have the Group B Strep test done even though I've tested positive twice for it and have the option of just receiving the antibiotics because of testing positive twice in the past, I decided lets do both just in case since there is a chance it could come back negative BUT at the time of delivery I could be positive and pass it along to the baby.  I feel better safe than sorry especially during what I want to be a joyous experience.  Speaking of joyous experineces I asked if I could have one of the midwives deliver the baby and she said they'd be happy to catch the baby :)  I have only seen my OB for 2 of our appointments and at the 20 week appointment she said have we met before?  Um yes only twice but still we have!  Since then I have seen a midwife just due to the OBs at the practice having crazy summer schedules.  I feel so much for laid back and comfortable with the midwives it's kinda like having your friend there to take care of you and answer your questions.  Up next 37 week appointment...

Running out of room...

My belly is running out of room in my maternity clothes!  I really do not want to go buy any more clothes right now with only about 4 weeks left.  I guess lots of repeat clothing will be seen from now until delivery!

35 days/35 weeks

T MINUS 35 DAYS (ok give or take) UNTIL BABY TIME!  That makes it feel a little more real as did going on a hospital tour of where we'll be delivering.  The birthing suites are AMAZING!

My anxiety is starting to get the best of me these days, always feeling overwhelmed that there are too many things to get done before the baby arrives.  I know I need to let go of that control but it's so hard when we've waited so long for this.

34 weeks

We've reached 34 weeks and everything is still going GREAT!  Measuring on track and heart rate is still in the mid 140s.  I'm getting more and more uncomfortable, still have back pain and what feels like a broken pelvic bone. 

Regrets

My biggest regret of this pregnancy is not having taken weekly photos of my ever changing belly.  It makes me sad to think I won't remember what I looking like at any point and time of this pregnancy.  To top that off no one took photos at my baby shower this past weekend...HUGE BUMMER!  Not sure how it is that my husband is a photographer (on the side) and we do not have one photo of me pregnant this time around, well there are a handful I guess.  No taking it back now...maybe we should start  now?!

33 weeks

I am starting to feel anxious about the arrival of our baby.  I asked S last night if he was at all and he said he was too, mainly that he won't be here when it's go time.  :)  I've already put a few people on high alert just in case S is too far away to make it back here to get me to the hospital.  My worries are the unknown of when I will go into labor, how will Izzy do, having a baby 24/7 that is my/our responsibility...I know it's all out of my control but that's what makes me so anxious.

I have my second baby shower tomorrow 9/8/12, pretty excited about it!

Hard day

It seems recently that most days are easier than others when it comes to not having my 2 babies here with me but today is a hard day despite being 51 days away (give or take) from meeting this wonderful baby.  Maybe it's the gloominess outside this morning or maybe it's the quiet that so often in the past has crept into my day that I've always found hard to get myself away from.  Whatever the reason for this hard day being upon me I will try to embrace it and remember my babies today.