Hard day

It seems recently that most days are easier than others when it comes to not having my 2 babies here with me but today is a hard day despite being 51 days away (give or take) from meeting this wonderful baby.  Maybe it's the gloominess outside this morning or maybe it's the quiet that so often in the past has crept into my day that I've always found hard to get myself away from.  Whatever the reason for this hard day being upon me I will try to embrace it and remember my babies today.