focus

I can't seem to keep focus on anything but the fact that we don't have our babies in our arms.  I can't stop focusing on why do we have to face this.  I felt like I was doing so well for quite some time but now I'm back to being angry and sad on a daily basis.  I hate feeling like this and don't know how to get out of this.  I feel stuck.  I wish I could focus on the joys of my life.  I just with I could focus long enough on anything but my loss.