day twentynine round two

We are not sure where to go from here, we feel like such failures.  And if money wasn't an issue we would just keep on with what is the "norm" plan of action for fertility...IUI w/ Clomid or Letrozole/Femera, IUI w/ injectables, and finally IVF.  We barely can afford what we are doing right now but have all the love to the moon and back for a child(ren) we don't even know yet to bring them into our lives.  Again despite the storm we are facing I sit here and say Thank You Lord for this storm!

day twentyeight round two

There are no words to express how I feel after finding out I'm not pregnant.  The only words that come to mind are angry and broken.

day twentysix and day twentyseven round two

I tried really hard to not be bothered by Mother's day this year and the reminder of that I'm not a mother to a living child, the worst part might be that no one (aside from my 4 year old niece who told me Happy Mother's Day and gave me a dandelion which made my day) acknowledges that we are still parents even though our child only lived for 8 weeks and is now in Heaven.  I know it's a hard subject and people don't want to make me upset and sad but it's a lot harder when it goes unacknowledged, not that my family didn't love me and check in on me today.  It's just hard not being part of the "mother" club.

day twentyfour and twentyfive round two

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day twentytwo and twentythree round two

I hate having to do two progesterone pills per day!  Nothing else to report.  It just sucks but I know it's worth it.

day twentyone round two

I had my progesterone tested today to check if my levels to see if my medicine needed to be adjusted or not.  Unfortunately I found out that I have to start doing 2 progesterone pills per day because my progesterone levels were a little low and this is something that my RE takes very seriously because it's so crucial to pregnancy.  I'm really really not looking forward to shoving more pills in my vagina.

day nineteen and day twenty round two

Thank you Lord for being there for me in every storm!  Today (Sunday) was one of the most uplifting days I have had in a long time.  It was such a breath of fresh air to speak to someone who has been in our shoes and now has 4 beautiful children.  Thank you Lord for giving me today!